weekend

hey yall

ok first im gonna start with my nostalgia tag which was made by ellie!!!!! 

HERE'S HOW IT WORKS

• these questions are all about from when you were younger. Just imagine that that is written after each question.
• That's literally it.

1. Favourite book?like okay i lowvveeedd jacqueline wilson and omg CANDYFLOSS WAS THE BEST BOOK EVER ESPECIALLY WITH THE COMICS TO START EVERY CHAPTER OMG IT WAS THE BEST


2. Favourite film?like i cant decide i watched wayyyyy too many tv shows to even like movies but hmmm snow white i liked that shit (but i grew up learning that it was racist??!? how was i suposed to know??!)

2.5. Favourite TV film?THE MOVIE OF JIMMY NEUTRON UM TOTALLY SPIES MOVIES SPECIALS AND KIM POSSIBLE TH EMOVIE WHEN SHE GOT WITH RON I CRIED SO HARD WHEN IT HAPPENED I SCREAMED SO HIGH PITCH NO ONE COULD HEAR ME
3. Favourite TV show?teletubbies (lol) (it was amazing) (i am po irl)

4. Favourite toy?LITTLEST PET SHOP I HAD THEM ALL

5. Favourite game?vid game: wow pokemon duhboard game: baTLESHIPActual game: families (i was always the dad or the big sister ugh lmfao)

6. Favourite place?the park next to my childhood home and the hill where i would cycle down yeah :~)

7. Favourite thing to do?
draw in my ikea~star~book, generally go to ikea, play with my lps things, watch tv shows (and i am stil the same), go 2 jungle gyms, eat, play with my cat

also what makews u think i have grown up from this stage mentally i mean
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i was supposed 2 tag ppl but im bad at that but this is
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INVITATIONN 

IF U WANNA DO THE TAG THEN DO IT AND THEN LINK BACK 2 ME 

BUT IF U DONT WANNA DO IT THEN U CAN CARRY ON TO THE REST OF THE POSTS OK

i coulsnt blog last week bc :( exams and i have my first gcse language exam in two days and im really scared

please comment some advice if u have done one before or am doing it now thansk so much!!

I HAVE BEEN REWATCHING ENTIRE SEASON ONE OF GAME OF THRONES
hmmmm

(lol tryna b a modle but this is what i wore lately swg)

oh yeah i watched the great gatsby it was SO GOOD!!! i though it was bad at first but then i watched it and it was really good so watch it

also if ur not gonna add me on fb then *swish* fine then

errrmmmm not alot has been happening in my life i havent got my film produced and my blog is poop ful of selfies and

im sry i have disappointed u guys

im not a v good blogger so heres a wonderful vimeo video by an actual talented person




ok 

bye 

SAD GURLZ x

hey guyysyssss

hey guys sorry for not posting in ages but yeah ive been feeling loads better and ur messages (if u did send me one) were really sweet so thank you for that

ummmm im not sure if im gonna update very often but if you want updates or to chat with me, you can add me on facebook here

i hope i can talk to you guys (and i only have one friend) hahahhaah

xxxx c u there sad gurlz

really really personal post

hey everyone i dont usually write personal posts on this blog but i feel like theres no other way to express what im feeling right now

and what im feeling right now isnt great

last year i felt extremely depressed for about 6 months or so, i cried at small things for no reason and i usually just slept when i wasnt crying. i couldnt talk to my parents about anything, i had friends but i still felt lonely everywhere i went.

this year i thought it was going to be different

i thought i was going to actually be happy for once

and i was for a while

i had great fun friends and my relationship with my parents stabilised and i felt stable too

but there it was, the lurking feeling of loneliness everywhere i went

and its still here

it came a few days ago, honestly, its been something thats been following along with other feelings such as social anxiety and others. i cant turn to anyone because my friends dont care (they're different to my friends last year), my friends that do dont know what to say and my parents dont think i need help eventhough i tell them that i do. at this point i just feel like no one cares anymore and i feel more alone than ever.

i cant sleep. i eat too much. i cant feel anything. at other times i feel everything at once, all coming at me. nobody cares. nobody wants to help. my friends are too fucking self absorbed in themselves to even care about me when i have always been there for them.

and i just feel like right now

theres no one

im not sure why im writing here, maybe i feel like you guys would like to know in case of an absence. i think i just made this blog really depressing but i dont know who else to turn to. im sorry

- areena